aches and pains

I think I'm pretty fortunate in that I can't really say I have "chronic pain" - but I definitely am a lot more "stiff and sore" than most people my age.. according to my friends.. and this one patient who told me I can't possibly understand the daily aches and pains one gets when they are older and I should enjoy being in my 20's while I am.... little does she know...lol I have noticed that I can't go nearly as long without advil/aleve than I use to.. it didn't use to be a daily thing but its gradually gotten to be. Aleve definitly cuz it lasts longer, and advil a couple times a day..at the very least, before i goto bed and when i wake up. - sure hope I dont end up with any GI bleed issues or anything cuz that would surely suck.

Bursitis in both hips has really been acting up.. making it really hard to sleep on either side at all, which doesn't do good things for my SI joint. lol stupid catch 22. BUT! my insurance card finally showed up! yay! So i looked em up online, and it looks like I have quite a few choices for who I want to see for Physical therapy. sweet. Now the question is... how the heck do i choose?! Ive never had a choice before.. I dont know if calling each place and asking if they have anyone familiar with genetic stuff, or hypermobility stuff, or marfans/EDS would do any good... ?? I lucked out w/ that last PT lady who happened to have a Marfans patient at the same time, so she was very interested in researching it all and customizing everything just so.

I also need to call my insurance peoples and find out if my old script from Aug is still valid or if i need to goto the doc again and get a new script for PT. Tempted to go back to the ortho guy and ask about cortisone shot again... in both hips.. (so im extra miserable for a couple days) - might make the PT more effective if i actually do the crap..lol and the whole, temporary relief thing until the PT starts helping).

Found out crap about the curves thing.. and that I can go to a local curves, join that one and they wont charge me the sign up fees. I was apparently suppose to get my packet in the mail but that obviously never showed.. or got lost. Soo i really want to do that. i know i need it.. (tho moreso when my hips get fixed again my PT so extra crap can have a chance to stop hurting and the right muscles will be firing). As much as I am tempted to try a "normal" gym, curves is so much more gentle and better for my joints i think. And the new curves is RIGHT on the way home from work too...more incentive.

that shoulder blade muscle knot keeps coming back too.. it usually goes away after a muscle relaxer or two but then it shows back up a couple weeks later. Hoping PT of my shoulders will help that too..

I want daily massages.. badly. i have all sorts of new knots in my back and shoulders I didnt use to have.

oohh I had this one a couple wks ago in my lower back..it was like pinching a nerve or something, holy crap it hurt to walk or move.. sucked at work cuz i couldnt do some basic stuff.. grr. finally went away after lots of rubbing it and taking muscle relaxers (and then thats when my SI joint started acting up again more so Lol.. - why must everything be so interconnected?! lol)

Okay.. i gotta go pass out. I was called off work, then put on call, and then called in for 4 1/2 hrs of work cuz someone went home sick (got time and 1/2 for that heh) but now i gotta crash cuz i got work again tonight.

nightynight.

stupid muscle knot!

So I got sick randomly.. that was obnoxious. Least it started on my first-of-4-days-off... and so i was able to drug the hell out of myself and SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP... I took what drugs i had on hand that would knock me out, only needed it about once a day cuz im now also off my desipramine (i had 2 days left but with only 2 days left and it costing over 100 bucks to refill the script without my insurance (that hopefully will announce itself in my mailbox soon..) - yeah.. no point. So yeah.. I took drugs, and pretty much slept for almost all of 48 hours.. i woke up to talk to T a little bit before and after his work, and that was pretty much it.
but i feel better now. I just have a dry bronchitis-like cough here and there, not bad enough to do anything about thankgod. And my nose is done being stupid and i havent seen gross thick green crap for awhile. and i feel better. yay.

cept for this crazy muscle knot in my shoulder blade that makes turning my head to the right really hurt.... i can feel the knot and holy crap it hurts.

since im feeling better I really want to like.. dress up all fun-like and have fun. T took an extra shift tonight (overtime) and im working tomorrow (his day off) so.. next will it will have to be...

my scale has me down 40lbs from this time last year... very weird. i dont feel that much smaller.. and im now basically my long standing "goal weight" i always said id want to be but didnt think i ever would be..

my curves apparnetly closed down.. and i hadnt transfered my membership yet.. so now i gotta see if i can transfer my membership.. cuz otherwise id have to sign up again at a different one and itd cost more money and crap =( which i dont have.. and i really want to goto curves damnit.

i want my insurance info so i can figure out the physical therapy thing.. i getta keep my doc (yay!) but i dont know if my old script she wrote me in Aug would still be good..? or if i have to go back again, and get a new one. i dont know. the info LOOKS like i should be able to self-refer but i dont know. and i gotta figure out where to go.... ive never had an option before.

blah, gotta be productive. put clothes away and put more of the kitchen away.. all my crap is glaring at me in its boxes and i dont know what to do with it all..

joints, sleep, and advil...

so theoretically, i get to start PT this month.. yay! Shoulder has been really bugging me. and it won't stay put at all. A nurse i was giving report to commented on my shoving it back into place.. i do it kinda subconsciously now and it thunked kinda loudly with an obvious couple inch shift back into place and she was all "Woa.. was that your shoulder? Is that rotator cuff problems?" needing to be a bit more creative with my pillow placement too when I sleep. I think i need another squishy pillow, usually i use one for my head but in the winter, i need to sleep on 2 or my nose gets all stuffy (grr)...and then i have my body pillow for my hips and kinda shoulder, but when i steal the bfs pillow when hes not here, it works a lot better.. - yup, im turning into my mother. lol

I rarely have restless leg issues.. during my sleep study i barely qualified as having restless leg.. and the mirapex was bad for me cuz i couldnt stay awake to save my life the next day, ("rare side effect") - but EVERY SO OFTEN i cant get comfy and i have to keep moving them, esp as im trying to sleep. last night was one of those nights.. bloody hell it was obnoxious. and tony wasnt here so i just kept flipping back and fourth. usually im fine sleeping alone so i dont think that was it but gah.. (he fully admits to not being able to sleep when im not here tho.. he says im not allowed to be gone during the day anymore lol) I miss my super soft bed... we're sleeping on a king mattress at the moment (freakin huge) and its good for his back but i need a few more pillows.. i think when we get all situated, and my old bed is all made up in the guest room, then thats where im gunna sleep when hes not here Lol..

so i dont have my script drug info yet... but im damn near close to being out of my desipramine.. and i just found out its $110 to pay outta pocket for.. which i dont really want to pay for. maybe i'll go without and show the bf how insanely difficult i am to wake up without it.. (ha! and he thought i was hard to wake up now...lol).

im trying to resist the urg to take my adderall.. its been 3 days or so now. Goin back to the whole, caffeine thing again. not sure what im trying to prove... cept that im not dependent on the adderall, i only take it a few days a week as it is but yeah.. its also nice not having the crazy dry mouth (between adderall and disipramine, i get pretty bad cotton mouth) - i'll probably take it again this weekend so i dont sleep away my days off. id rather take it when im not working than when I am so I'm more productive on my off days. damn narcolepsy.

i also forgot to take my advil and aleve for a couple days.. and then was wondering why i was so dang sore...lol duh. i needed to get out of bed and take it so i could sleep more the other day and he asked where i was going so i had to tell him.... i hate admitting that. i'd much rather just take my meds in silence and not let on..

okay i gotta wake up and get ready for work.. last day of the week, which is nice... and